I am not a "blogger" in the sense that I do not blog on a regular basis. This is really more of a journal for me and a way of tracking life surrounding Ali. Or so, this is how I started this. It's amazing how much a year changes a life. Reading my last post over a year ago, how much we were anxious to bring Ali home, just be with her and move forward with life.... well, God has certainly moved life forward for us. The adoption finalization of Alicen, the birth of Meghan and the soon-to-be adoption of Emilee. Life is crazy, that is for sure. Life is wonderful. Life is difficult. Life is amazing. There are so many times I feel overwhelmed or frustrated or on occasion, simply afraid. I am forever thankful that Jesus Christ is in my corner. That is can be in ALL of our corners. That I am NEVER alone, even when I feel that I am.
I am going to be making some changes in my life. Things that some might not understand. Subtle changes, but changes none-the-less. I am scaling down some areas to make room in others. I am trying to focus on where the Lord is calling me and less on where I feel I SHOULD be called or help out. Life is precious, limited in time and joyous when not crowded out by "should-have, could-have or guilt". It's time to put down the list, the worry of not filling everyone elses needs/wants/desires and just follow after the Lords direction. It may take a while stop feeling like I am failing others but I can't WAIT to have that sense of calm, direct purpose and satisfaction in just doing what I am SUPPOSED to be doing. Not what I think I "should" be doing. Pray for me... For those of you who know me know... this won't be easy.
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